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ChangWen8OCT
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Libra
Temasek Poly
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
some times i just feel like taking a knife to stab myself....because bad memories sometimes come back to haunt me...sometimes the haunt become so bad that i will start to have giddiness...one of my relative totally wiped out my dignity in front of the family...during my grandma's birthday...i have always been seen as nuthing in my family...no one would even care to play any games with me during festive seasons like chinese new year...am i that scary...y do they ignore me...some more they are my own family member...luckily on the other time not long ago...the same person totally wiped out my dignity in front of the whole family again...he is a senior...he said relly crude things in front of my grandma...i looked down and cried....i couldn't take it anymore...so i lifted up my head and cursed his whole family, in front of my grandma whom i respect most, real crudely too...he wanted to slap me...i grabbed his hand...i dun wanna get slapped in front of the whole family again...after that he pushed me away...i knocked into my mum...i gone wild and crazy and went into the kitchen...next my father rushed into the kitchen and snatched away the knife on my hand...but i became like that is because of him and some other past times...have u get your clothes ripped of before by ur uncle when he is drunk?and you are just 10 years old?and not for just one time?have you get slapped in front of public or even during family gathering?you think i want to run into kitchen and take that dangerous thing, and for what i wanna do is to slit my own wrist...i wanna make them feel guilt forever....but i would be stupid if i do it...but i must say all these things out because i have to really throw away all my bad memories...
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