this morning something shocking happened...a shocking news...my uncle in malaysia passed away...he was the youngest brother of my mum...when me and my brother were still young...he stayed with us for some time...instead i think its a long time...we got angry with him we laughed at him we pissed him off...but still he cared for us...he went back to malaysia for a long time...when we are older now...we do not have much time spent with him...the last time we saw him was one or two months ago...he actually came from malaysia to see us...at first i thought he is in need of money but no...he is here to see us...to see us for the last time...and the last time i saw him...i never talked to him but i greeted him...that was the last moment between me and him...

i was stunned when i woke up this morning when dad woke us up...was speechless...the first thing i heard was mum chanting and crying...i sat on bed for a while to settle down...and went to the living room speechless...mum and dad decided to go back to malaysia...for 3 days...i wanted to go back...but i gotta work on thursday...i was totally in a dilemma...i told mum and dad to go ahead first and i will join them the next day...and when i called them again...they told me not to go...i was speechless...gwen asked me what happened...and i told her...at that moment that's just what i need...someone to talk to...for the rest of the day...i was looking back...and i found out that i said something very bad to him...very bad...i am feeling very guilty now...very guilty...deep down i miss him...today the tears seems to be endless...flowing...never ending...even now...they are flowing down by themselves...

i've learned...to cherish even more...every moment with anyone should be a happy one...

now what i need most is to go somewhere to let myself settle down...a place where i can laugh hardly...a place when i can have fun and cheer up...i wanted to met some friends for dinner coz i just need accompany...but got no replies...guess they are busy with stuff...really apologize if i bothered you all...i guess we have to rely on ourselves after all...

take care guys...i will cherish all of you...

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